I like routine. It's hard to admit because I'd rather be that care free lets just go explore everyday kind of girl, but realistically I like planning out my week. I like exploring and trying new things and discovering new places, but not in a spontaneous kind of way.
I also stress about money. Like all the time... It's a big problem I have. Luckily my husband knows how to calm me down and reassure me that we are ok and that most importantly God always provides for us.
Those two characteristics of mine came into play this week when I found out I'm only working 1 day instead of the normal 3 or 4. I don't like that this week isn't its normal routine and I don't like thinking about the money I am not going to be making.
But my loving husband again calms me down and says "that just means you have other things you need to be doing this week instead of work". Which is true. I'm having several coffee dates with people that I desperately need to catch up with, I'm going to update my blog which is long over due, and I am going to deep clean the house which we never got around to doing this weekend. Instead of looking at this week in a positive light and thinking of all the things I can do with all my free time, I stress.... and I HATE stressing!
I also had time for a quiet time this morning. And of course God hits me like a ton of bricks. This was my daily devotional today...
"I am the Risen One who shines upon you always. You worship a living Deity, not some idolatrous, man-made image. Your relationship with Me is meant to be vibrant and challenging, as I invade more and more areas of your life. Do not fear change, for I am making you a new creation, with old things passing away and new things continually on the horizon. When you cling to old ways and sameness you resist My work within you. I want you to embrace all that I am doing in your life, finding your security in Me alone. It is easy to make an idol of routine, finding security within the boundaries you build around your life. Although each day contains twenty-four hours, every single one presents a unique set of circumstances. Don't try to force-fit today into yesterday's mold. Instead, ask Me to open your eyes, so you can find all I have prepared for you in this precious day of Life."
I think God slows down my life sometimes when I am not focusing on Him. It's easy not to pray or read your bible when your days are jam packed. I need weeks like these to just refocus and allow God to direct my path, without my stubbornness getting in the way.